near midnight

>.<

I have this particular feeling
I hate it sometimes, simply confusing & it sucks.
Its wrong and even weirder to entertain those thoughts
Its sooooo crappy ...

After memories, the dream
That you will come home safe;
After sleep, another day
Of waiting for my life.

After hope, the happiness
Of thinking of you;
After moments of despair,
A stone no thought can move.

After all the sacrifice,
The hunger and the pain,
The passions and the promises,
The losses and the gains,

There's not really much left.

*p/s: I'm really having probs managing my sleeping habit ... the wrong hrs & the wrong place. huh ...

Dad's been feeding me with supper everynite ... will be overweight soon T_T